Comfy (ugly?) shoes

wool shoes

Express top – Limi Feu sweater – Rachel Comey Menace Pant – Allbirds

While Allbirds are comfortable, I think they fall into the fugly shoe category after one wear. Toe dimples of any and every sort will show up on these shows and they do not flatter any look at all. I thought I was being creative by having a lighter colored shoe with this outfit, but ultimately it just looks weird – simply because of the fugly shoe factor.

Comfy mode

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Acne Studios sweater – Rachel Comey Lure Pant – Allbirds shoes

Casual Friday and I was extremely comfortable – almost too comfortable in fact for work. When I’m at work I almost feel like I need some sort of rigidity to my outfits to keep me in check so I don’t get too lazy or forget to do something. I felt like I was wearing PJs with this outfit – not that it’s a bad thing, but maybe not for me while working.

Personal wardrobe

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Yohji Yamamoto sweater – Rachel Comey Lure Pant – Dries Van Noten shoes

This outfit was difficult. I’d had my eye on this sweater for a long time and took the plunge on it and now…. I’m not so sure. See the issue….

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If I raised my arms up the bottom of the sweater would pop up over my chest above my bra. Yeah…. didn’t quite think this purchase through. Sometimes avant-garde fashion really is just meant to be that and not something you simply throw on and wear to the office *derp*.

That being said, I still stubbornly wore the sweater all day. However, due to the company doing the restoration work in the office, there were fans blowing at full speed and the AC cranked low to deal with the humidity from the wet carpet so I ended up wearing my company fleece vest over the sweater and that made the crop of the sweater a non-issue.

That still doesn’t count as wearing that sweater successfully for the day. I may try it again on a day when I know I won’t be working Antarctica and see how well I manage…. because apparently I’m a masochist.

Do I like the sweater? Yes! It’s soft and warm and while the functionality has a little bit of an issue, I don’t want to part with it. I don’t know if that’s due to my being stubborn in that I-bought-it-damnit-I’m-wearing-it kind of way or if it’s because I’ve embraced wearing weirdly styled clothes or “different” pieces than what even used to be my norm, let alone anyone else’s.

Leah’s article got me thinking about this a fair bit and while I’m still very late in mentioning it, I read it when she posted it and had that fist-pumping YAAASSSS moment in my head.  I think that for as cumbersome and weird as some of the items may be, they are mine and that is part of what I wear and what I do and who I am. I wear the quirky clothes.

 

On not being able to dress for any weather, inside or out

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Journal Standard linen jacket – Everlane shirt – Rachel Comey Menace Pant – Nisolo shoes

The AC was cranked today to help keep the humidity down from the flooding yesterday. I wasn’t planning on it, but ended up wearing my jacket all day. When I went outside for a couple walks I was hot due to the humid, warm weather, but then shocked right back into huddle mode when I got inside. The kitchen also smells really badly of mildew and apparently half the walls are being replaced due to water damage. But here’s the weird thing, they are cutting the wall on a quarter of the way up from the floor and replacing only that section. It’s really weird and frustrating. The industrial dehumidifiers and fans whirring in the office and on the shop floor all day meant everyone was shouting above each other and I left work with a pounding headache.

The Shop Yohji Yamamoto is open and I’ve been drooling over so many things. I’ve been looking forward to the Ground Y collections and am now picking out items for a wishlist. Btw, nearly all the items are unisex….

This “fluttering dress”/ cardigan is gorgeous.

This turtleneck top/dress looks really comfortable and I could see myself living in it all the time.

This skirt/poncho = swoon.

These gabardine hakama pant and wrap dress look perfect to combine.

This no-sleeve vintage crepe de chine vest dress drapes gorgeously (and looks so much better on the male model in the product shots).

This is for posterity

Work, personified this week:

Wesley whimpering = me.

Also, why is dealing with clients akin to that scared feeling of having a tooth pulled in the frightening manner of putting a string around it and waiting in anxiety for someone across the room to slam the door?

Thursday: Knock Knock linen top, YY skirt, Frye shoes.

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I’ve been so much about shoes lately and yet all I want to wear are these Frye ones because they are the most comfortable. They are also the most beat up.

Friday: Grana tank top, Everlane button down, Rachel Comey Lure pant, Jil Sander shoes.

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I ended up leaving work early because something upset my stomach. I had felt off the night before and when I woke up I was nauseous and only got worse throughout the day. I’m not sure what it was, but hopefully I’m over it now. I ended buying take-out from a Japanese place for dinner since I was craving udon noodle soup. It did not disappoint although I was terrified the clams in the soup might set me off. Luckily they didn’t, but I didn’t eat them. Do food allergies only work if you directly eat the item in question? I thought that since they were cooking in the broth the soup base itself might be questionable then. The terror of it making my condition worse didn’t stop me from enjoying the soup though. Have I mentioned Stubborn is my middle name?

yuki and bento

Yuki and Bento. When I was taking photos off my camera I saw these and realized Z had taken some random photos again. I can see why he took it though – this is a rare moment where they both are in the same space and not fighting. They generally tolerate each other and only in dire situations (aka winter) will they curl up together to sleep, but even that is limited. Normally, Bento chases Yuki and she screams bloody murder. There have been several instances of Z and I walking into a room after hearing a commotion and seeing them rolling across the floor in a mass of hissing and screaming claws and limbs.

Archana‘s post about house plants rekindled a little flame I’ve had going in me since we’ve moved into this house. When I lived in Oklahoma I always had lots of house plants. The weather is much warmer there and cold seasons don’t last too long. My running joke about that state was there are two seasons: summer and January. I used to be the Plant Mom and friends who had plants that were dying always gave them to me to care for. However, that’s changed since I’ve been living on the east coast where there are still only two seasons: rain-forest-humid-with-a-side-of-sun and Antarctica. The summers here are ten times more humid that I ever expected they would be and then the winters are so dry Bento is trained to wince when we pet him between November and March (Yuki freaks out from the static and runs away). This house does get a decent amount of light, but the drastic temperature changes make keeping house plants extremely difficult. But I do miss having lots of plants like I used to and will try to make more of an effort to keep them alive.

 

Rain and waiting

I’ve been counting down the days, hours, minutes, seconds to when my senior comes back in the office and takes back his disaster of an account…. I’m very much at the end of my tether here. However, there’s a lot of chatter about how I’m going to be helping out with many more accounts. I’m ok with that, but I’m in no way ready to be the point person for the elephant in the company that is this monster account. I’ve been given so many NEED THIS NOW lists I’m starting to not GAF and say to the client: PICK ONE DAMNIT! I CAN’T DO THEM ALL!

Monday: Everlane top, YY pants, Eileen Fisher shoes.

Monday

After washing and ironing All The Things this weekend I was glad to put on my old fave YY pants again. No matter what I reach for these whenever possible.

Tuesday: YY top, Rachel Comey Menace Pants, Frye shoes.

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My shoes are a little darker now they’ve been properly cleaned, conditioned and polished. They are still pretty beat up, but they look much better than they used to. They are also the most comfortable shoes I have right now and they don’t aggravate my ankle so I reach for them often.

Wednesday: Knock Knock Linen top, new Y’s pants, Frye shoes.

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I’ve bought yet another pair of pants from Yohji Yamamoto. These went on sale at Totokaelo and I had a discount I could throw on top of it so they were less than $200, which is a steal for new YY items. They are lightweight wool and extremely comfortable – like PJs comfortable. I didn’t realize they had a drawstring, but I’m glad they do because otherwise they’d be big in a similar way to the Pas de Calais linen pants. I don’t mind the hip hugging aspect of them, but I like that I can cinch them up more with the drawstring. The low hanging back pockets are fab and the wool is perfect for wearing out in warm weather but give the perfect amount of cover needed for the blasting AC in the office. These are runner up for second favorite pair of pants. I wore them last night when I went out for last minute groceries and found myself lounging about in them when I got home. Z also commented on how “cute” they look and said the back pocket placement definitely gives the pants a good look.

I’ve been so busy this week I’ve started having bad dreams about losing POs or not knowing how to do something in our computer system. I tend to have more dreams like this when the stress gets really bad. Luckily – hopefully – this will be the last week of it for a while.

Skirt as skirt

Monday: Rosen top, Rachel Comey Menace Pant, Frye shoes.

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The stress of dealing with the new client account drained me so much I slept until almost 11 am Saturday. I was shocked I slept in that much, but I clearly needed it. Already this week I know I’m going to drop dead again this weekend. Sunday I was still exhausted and barely did anything. It wasn’t until I got home Monday that I realized I wore these same pants on Friday to work. They really are becoming workhorse pants for me. They are very comfortable and easy to coordinate.

Tuesday: Yesstyle linen top, YY linen skirt, Jil Sander shoes.

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This is the weird Yohji Yamamoto skirt that I wore as a dress a couple weeks ago – worn as a skirt here. I just folded over the extra material, tied it with the ties on the skirt, but also safety pinned it… just in case. I didn’t think I would end up wearing this skirt as a skirt, but I’m glad I did today. It’s so soupy outside it’s hard to breathe, but I still like to go out for walks near the office when I have the time. I tend to go out a couple times a day to a parking lot surrounded by trees just up the hill from the office. It helps me clear my head and today I definitely needed it after the reports I was working on and then the client call. Even though it was 90F with over 80% humidity I was perfectly comfortable on my walk with this skirt. I also love that it’s lined most of the way down. Due to the weird way the tie works on the skirt I side-tucked my shirt, which I am definitely a fan of doing again. It’s left out on the side where the ties are sewn into the skirt, but I tucked in my shirt just under the fold over of the fabric and where I tied the ties. If I’d thought about it – I could’ve taken a better detail photo. The fold over does leave a bulge, but it doesn’t bother me at all.

I don’t have much to say and am drained already. It’s only Tuesday! Granted, I did run 2 miles on the treadmill when I got home. I would’ve run outside, but a massive thunderstorm nixed that option. I am glad I ran no matter what. I needed the stress release.

Week 1 – Trial by fire

Wednesday: YY top, Rachel Comey Lure pant, Lems shoes.

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Thursday: YY top, Uniqlo pant, Jil Sander shoes.

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Friday: Top from Yesstyle (Chinese vendor), Rachel Comey Menace pant, Frye shoes.

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This week has officially kicked my ass. I’m reminded of the rushed, stressed feeling from when I was first given my client accounts back in January/February, which were a mess. Everything was late and I was frantically rushing about to all the areas of the shop, constantly checking on product status.

This first week I’ve been taking over a coworker’s account while he’s on vacation and it’s the largest client account we have. Basically I’ve been tasked with taming a wild, galloping elephant and it’s getting the better of me. I knew this account was a bit of a clusterfuck to begin with, but damn…. this is beyond anything I could’ve ever imagined. Also, I don’t think my coworker anticipated any of the stuff I ended up encountering. He said I only had prototypes to worry about… well, the prototypes were the easiest part of what I’ve had to worry about all week. I’ve been in contact with the client rep 4-5 times every day. My boss is the only other one who knows what’s going with this client and he’s been out half the week at a conference. He’s checked in with me every day and yesterday I flat out said to him, “I’m drowning.” I was given a report from the client to work on and I was floored by how much we are backordered and what goes into all the orders we do for this client. My clients are peanuts by comparison. I’ve gotten them all under control now and have a really good rapport with them. So to be given this task with a new rep that I’m only temporarily working with has literally thrown me back into the deep end of the pool with everyone standing at the side saying, “swim, damnit!”

However, I have managed to gain a much greater respect for my senior who handles this account because it’s so insane and I’ve learned a lot of new things about how we operate and manage the work load. And I’ve been given tasks that I had no idea ever fell on my department before. I’ve had so many 5-minute-tutorials on how to change things in our system to accommodate the work load I’ve left work with my head spinning and a general sense of anxiety, wondering if what I did was correct. Even today I turned to the more seasoned employee next to me and asked if I did X, Y and Z things right that were entered the day before. I won’t say it’s been easy or the best way for me to learn this stuff, considering it’s all on the fly, but I’m gaining a much greater grasp of how I can help out.

The new admin has been great in seeing if I’m ok and even coming to me with silly things or comments just to make me smile. It’s obvious she cares and is worried about me and that makes me feel all the better about us hiring her. I’ve given her a huge task I used to handle simply because I’m so swamped I can’t take care of it now, which she will need some guidance with, but I’m sure she’ll be helpful. After seeing some of the stuff I had to deal with, even on a generally slow Friday, she said she didn’t envy me at all but is still willing to help me out whenever possible. It’s really nice having that kind of support.

The biggest thing to help me this week has been being able to run. I’ve run three times this week and getting that stress out of my system by exhausting myself physically has done wonders for me emotionally. I’m still restraining myself because I know I risk running myself into a new injury out of sheer stubbornness, but what little I’ve done has worked. Granted, I’ve got a mean case of DOMS (delayed onset muscle soreness) in my legs, but the little masochist in me is saying, “Yaaaaassssssss, my preciousss.” Once I get over the soreness, I’ll get to the strengthening part and after that the muscle memory part and then… it’s all routine and my head clears and I move mechanically – in a good way.

I thought about running tonight, but I did run a lot more than I intended to yesterday so Z told me to take it is. So… I’ve had a double of Johnny Walker Red and am about to stuff myself with grilled brats and apricots and couch potato it with more beer and watch new anime season premieres.

What is the point of this week?

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Monday: Yohji Yamamoto sleeveless top, Rachel Comey Lure pant, Lems shoes.

A coworker, who had a very Audrey Hepburn from Roman Holiday vibe with her outfit today, told me she loved mine. This surprised me, bit I was happy to take the compliment. I had on my turquoise cardigan on a lot because the AC was blasting, but I was fairly happy with this casual outfit. Since this week is just going to be a series of eye-rolling moments until Wednesday and then again Friday, I’m not bothering to dress overly office-friendly. Everyone kept saying today is Fake Thursday and tomorrow is Fake Friday due to the holiday. Then we start over again with Second Thursday and Real Friday.

I’m really glad I got this top. It’s all cotton, but it’s woven like the black YY turtleneck so it feels substantial and looks more elegant than just any old black cotton top. It almost has a sheen to it and feels a teensy bit like polyester, but it is full cotton. Whatever the weave is of this cotton to make shirts like this – I love it and want more of it. Taking a cue from Talia, I put on a large black belt, which I think really helps this outfit. Seeing myself in the photo, I kinda get a Rosie the Riveter feel and I’m digging it. I look more like I finished a shift at an auto shop than an office. And yet, the feel of the fabric makes my clothes feel too precious to dirty up in an auto shop.

This is all a long-winded way of saying I love the new top I got.

Other than that – it’s damn hot out. 100F here today with a heat index of 106. I really don’t want to exercise today, but I should. Plus, I just got my other pair of Adidas to try out, so I may as well put them through some paces on the treadmill.

Panic in 3, 2, 1…

Wednesday’s outfit: New (to me, but used from TRR) Ann Demeulemeester top, Rachel Comey Menace Pant, Chinese Laundry shoes (old).

Investor visit day. My shoes are wedges I’ve shown before, but you can’t really see them much in this photo. The Quality Director was wearing wedges as well that looked almost exactly like mine. Hers were from Target, mine from DSW. I told her I wore them to my wedding and her eyes bugged out, saying, “No way!” Yes way. My wedding was super no fuss and casual. I wore a black cocktail dress that I no longer have because I weighed 20lbs more back then and the dress doesn’t fit me so I donated it.

Anyway, this was my first time wearing the Ann D shirt and it’s super soft cotton that almost clung to me too much. It’s more suited to jeans than formal wear, but I made the outfit work for me. I’m also still torn between having the pants hemmed or not. They are very long and even with the wedge there’s a lot of extra pant hanging around the bottom. I kinda like that baggy, bunched up ankle look, but I’m not sure it’s the best option for office-ness stuffs.

Wednesday

Thursday: (no photo) I skipped because it was a PT day. I wore my Everlane white button down and green linen Uniqlo pants with my navy Jil Sander shoes. My boss stumbled backwards (literally because he’s a clown like that), confused because I wasn’t wearing black and commented on it. I guess I have a reputation now….  Anyway, the new admin we hired also wears black almost all the time and she thinks about things in the same way I do to a degree that is almost frightening. We laughed about that. She then said that it should be reassuring to know that she’ll get done whatever I tell her to do. I’m technically not her boss, so that was a little scary, but also slightly comforting. In any case, we get along really well and I’m glad she’s fitting in with the company.

Friday

Friday: Yohji Yamamoto day – wearing YY top and YY suit pants with Eileen Fisher shoes and obnoxious cat (Bento) in my way. Just look at the snarky glare he’s giving the camera. He’s such a turd.

I’ve been stress eating/drinking this week. Today was the last day of the investor visits. Now we see who bites – or not. We may be bought out or merged or whatever. It’s a rather frightening time, especially for the upper management. I don’t think I’ll have anything to worry about immediately, but I still don’t like the idea of losing my boss, who is VP. On top of that, the last prototype for my client is severely delayed. The engineers have been  having an insane time getting the part done right and the lab with a Super Famous Surgeon for these is due Wednesday at my client’s location, which is nowhere near here. The guys are working this weekend to get it done so I’ll be going in to work tomorrow for support. I’m not keen on the idea of just letting them work their butts off while I sit around and wait for the results. If the parts run ok this weekend then we can ship on Monday. Worst WORST case scenario, we get them done by Tuesday at the latest. If we manage to get them done that late, then guess who will most likely be on an emergency flight to the client to hand off parts and then turn around to fly back? Why? Oh well my boss will already be in another state visiting another client that day. *head**desk* This afternoon he told me to look into flights – just in case.

Never ever in a million years did I ever think I’d be working for a company that put me in these situations. This Is Not A Bad Thing. Seriously, this job is one of the best things that could’ve happened to me and while there’s a shit ton that’s wrong and messed up, there’s also a shit ton that’s amazing and fun as well – mostly the motley crew of clowns I work with. This job is the definition of bi-polar disorder. And yet… I know I can do it and handle it. It’s woken me up and made me sharper and think more clearly in many ways. Yes, it’s stressful as hell, but there’s a sense of fun even in that – for as masochistic as that sounds.

In the meantime, Bring Me All The Scotch while I freak the fuck out this weekend….