While Allbirds are comfortable, I think they fall into the fugly shoe category after one wear. Toe dimples of any and every sort will show up on these shows and they do not flatter any look at all. I thought I was being creative by having a lighter colored shoe with this outfit, but ultimately it just looks weird – simply because of the fugly shoe factor.
Journal Standard Jacket – Yohji Yamamoto shirt – Limi Feu sweater – Y-3 leggings – Dries Van Noten shoes
I am extremely sore from starting up my weight training routine. Part of me loves that feeling, but part of me also hates it. I’m a little too sore now for it to be enjoyable in that I’m getting stronger! sort of way.
This outfit is the closest I’ve ever been to wearing a dress in the past…. 3 years? Granted, the leggings helped. I have a few Y3 items and realized their sizing is really weird. These leggings are an XS and still are baggy and big on me. Apparently they do make XXS, but those were sold out. This outfit is definitely something different for me. Even though traditionally it’s out of my comfort zone, I felt really comfortable wearing it and know that I may wear it again. The sweater is so incredibly warm I was almost hot part of the day.
Limi Feu sweater, Banana Republic top, Rachel Comey pants. It was cold this morning, but my office area has been getting much warmer throughout the day so I took off the sweater for the later half. Yesterday I was roasting in the cashmere sweater in the afternoon with the sun on me.
I left the office at my normal time and managed to get OOTD photos done in some daylight.
Next week I might have jury duty. I’m hoping I won’t get selected because I’ve got too much to do at work already. My answers were always straight forward on the questionnaires for jury selection before, but now there is a difference. I was mugged a block away from my apartment when I lived in the city and the guy was never caught. It’s fairly typical in the city though. In fact, there’s a motto that there are those who have been mugged and those who have yet to be mugged. I lived there for 10 years and 4 fucking months before we moved out of the city I ended up being another of the city’s victims. The guy waited until I got in my car, stood over me and as I screamed he dove in the car, strangling me to shut up until he reached over and grabbed my handbag and ran. I was dazed and in a panic and some guy walking his dog down the street acted like he didn’t see anything although anyone with half a brain cell would notice how visibly shaken and upset I was. The cops weren’t helpful either because they didn’t drive me around the neighborhood like they are supposed to in an attempt to see if I recognized the guy. The detective I talked to looked dejected when he found out I wasn’t driven around – apparently it’s normal for the cops to not give a fuck because it happens so often. The policewoman who picked me up was actually quite the bitch to me, as if I was inconveniencing her. I’ve had other bad experiences with sexist cops and cops using their status to try and intimidate me. When I called them out on it though they shut up and acted like nothing happened.
I know that not all cops are like that and in the city it can be tough, but in all honesty if they even pretended like they gave two shits they’d probably get a little more respect and help from the citizens in general.
I am glad I no longer live in the city, but I’m still really paranoid now about going out in some places because of what happened.
Wednesday was my 3 month review with my boss and we officially discussed my changing roles. Basically, his department is severely understaffed and he’s been nudging me (ok, more like throwing me in the deep end of a pool, which he finally admit to) to move into it as customer service support. To his credit, he asked me what I was interested in doing and was willing to listen to me. If I didn’t want it, he wouldn’t push any more and go hire someone. He’s totally fine with my staying in the admin role and only helping him out with one client. However, I do have a long history of customer service in my resume and know what he’s setting me up for. The only major hurdle for me is understanding the software program so I can get the answers I need in a more timely manner. I also knew going into this new role would mean a rather large pay raise. I admit I was much more interested in a different area of the company, however, I also recognize how much the company needed a customer service role right now and although it’s not my favorite area, I can do it.
We discussed my transition period and my receiving dedicated training and take on more clients – until we find my replacement for the admin role. After that I will go full time (I think the title would be Customer Liaison, but I’m not sure) into my new role and handle more accounts.
After that meeting I had some time to do work and we had another meeting with the client I’ve been working with over the past month.
Thursday I had a meeting with our marketing company. The woman I took over for in the admin role is on maternity leave, but her coming back now is a 50/50 coin toss as far as I’m concerned so I’m preparing myself for having to take over marketing as well for the time being. I spent the rest of the day Thursday looking through the software program and asking everyone in engineering about operations.
Today I was a little busy this morning but by noon I didn’t have much to do and the general stress of the week finally let go and suddenly was so drowsy I couldn’t stop yawning and had a terrible time staying awake.
I’ve been full on exhausted all week. I don’t sleep well during the work week because I have sleep anxiety. I must be in bed by a certain time because my mind then does a count down of how much time I have left before the alarm goes off and it sets a mini panic mode in me. So sleep during the week is generally bad and then I crash on Friday and Saturday nights. The added stress of having my review and knowing I’m transitioning into a role with many more responsibilities over the next couple months has wreaked havoc on me mentally. It’s not a bad thing, but more like stressful excitability.
I’m one of those people who always look for the end game and I’ve already been looking at the logistics of what the major problems areas are in the company that pertain to my role and how I can overcome them. To a degree, this may mean trying to work around/over someone who has been in the company for a very long time because to be frank about it: he’s fucking shit at his job and his duties are crucial to many areas of the company as a whole. Everyone complains about this guy and he’s been moved from one role to another just to get him out of the way and put him in an area where he’s the least destructive. Why not fire him? Well…. that’s a whole can of worms I can’t get into but let’s just say certain people are bound by familial connections and those connections demand this asshole be take care of.
Aside from this annoyingly huge obstacle, most everyone else I’ve worked with and will be working more closely with in the company has been beyond amazing. This is the most corporate company I’ve ever worked for and I wasn’t expecting much, but I’ve been bowled over by the amount of help and support I’ve received. It’s truly awe-inspiring that so many people will stop to answer my questions and never complain nor chide me or tell me to go get the answer elsewhere. I’ve never been in a work environment where everyone truly supports each other so much. I hate to use the term family because I’ve always found that to be cliche and ridiculous since not many people really talk to each other outside of work, but while in the office, there is a close-knit togetherness that is truly endearing.
I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before, but I work for a medical component manufacturing company. The components we make are used in surgery for spine and joint support/correction. I mostly work in the office, but there is a factory connected to the business office and every employee is required to wear PPE (personal protective equipment): safety glasses and non-slip shoes. I have a pair of non-slip clogs I put on occasionally when I need to hand out paperwork to the people on the shop floor or find out a status of part production. I do take off my boot for the times I go out on the floor, but in general I hand off stuff to other people I know will go out there. Many of them don’t mind at all and know I’m trying to stay off my leg while I’m wearing the boot.
As my new role progresses, I might end up sharing office space with people on the shop floor since that’s where I need to find out the most information for the clients.
So let’s get this out of the way. New car. There it is. It has 4 exhaust levels, meaning you can adjust how loud it is. Z usually keeps it in quiet mode while in the neighborhood because no one likes that neighbor with the obnoxiously loud car. It also has heated and cooled seats, which is really nice. The next car I get might have to have cooled seats (I already have heated) because swamp butt in the summer is annoying.
This is just a leisure car. Z does have a “beater” he uses to get to work regularly and for other things.
Sunday outfit: Everlane long sleeve tee, Limi Feu sweater, Grana jeans. In the photo with the car above I put on my Journal Standard jacket for going out.
I actually got dressed on both Saturday and Sunday this weekend! I haven’t done that in… I don’t know how long. That’s kinda sad to admit, but whatever. I’m making more of an effort now. We’ll see how long this lasts.
Uniqlo top, Rachel Comey pants.
This winter has been really weird. Whenever we get any sort of precipitation it’s been really warm. Today we had a ton of rain and it was 60F outside. It’s January! Normally all of that rain would be snow. I’m glad it’s not snow, but it’s kinda scary that it’s been all rain – like Winter is broken. Or you know, it’s called climate change and it really is a scary issue when you think about it and know that these conditions are not normal.
So I forgot to take a photo yesterday and I labeled today’s photo “monday”. That’s what kind of week it’s been so far for me. Yesterday I was distracted by the pretty necklace I got in the mail I’m wearing today. My friend Jenny, who lives on the other side of the US from me, always sends me the best jewelry and over half of my collection has been gifted to me by her. It’s become our thing now to buy jewelry for each other because we both have the same taste. A lot of the time we’ll buy two of the same item: one for each other and one for ourselves. This was my Christmas gift this year. I’ve been a bad, slacker friend because I’ve not sent out hers yet. Sorry Jenny! I’ll get on it soon!
Things are afoot at work. I’m doing a lot more of it now in a different area from where I was hired and it may move me into a whole new position in the company sooner than I thought. This is a good thing though. I’m also communicating with my boss a lot better and I think I shocked him today with my progress in understanding the work he’s given me. He wasn’t quite expecting me to be at this level yet, but I forged my way into it because I simply see it as being what I need to know in order to do this project the right way. There may be a lot of changes for me in the upcoming months.
This is my Limi Feu sweater and it has a secret. When I got it, there was a hole in it.
The hole is on the back of the sweater and it was small. It wasn’t in the listing when the seller posted it (it’s from a discounter site in Japan), but when I got it (gifted to me by Z for Christmas) it had a very heavy moth ball scent to it. It had clearly been sitting for a while and I’m guessing the hole was in fact from a moth and I doubt the seller even knew about it. My husband had no idea and when I told him about it today he was shocked. I noticed the hole when I opened the package on Christmas day, but didn’t say anything. I just thought, “I’ll have to patch that up.” Never did I think of returning it because I wanted to keep it and I love this sweater. Today, of course, Z got a little upset and kept saying sorry about the hole, but I assured him that no matter what I would’ve bought it even if he hadn’t. I didn’t want him to feel bad about it and it’s his upset reaction that made me wait even until now to say anything. If I’m not upset, then there’s no reason he should be. It’s not a big deal to me at all. I then explained to him how I fixed it. I even lay the sweater out flat and asked him if he could tell where it was. He said no, he didn’t see anything.
To patch the hole I took some dark thread and super carefully sewed up ends of the hole together as best I could without severely pinching the fabric. The fabric is a wool and linen blend and it’s not a traditional knit, therefore trying to fix it like one would a knitted sweater is not an option. After carefully sewing a few parts of the hole to close shut, I took a piece of iron-on bonding tape and put that on the sweater and then a small piece of super thin lining fabric for bonding to the sweater. The result worked ten times better than expected. I did all of this before I ever washed the moth ball scent out of the sweater. I put the sweater in a laundry bag, put on delicate (cold water) cycle and used Woolite Dark. The smell came out and the patch job worked perfectly. I lay it out to dry and then used an iron on it to smooth it out.
Interestingly enough, the tag on the inside of the sweater in the above photo says: “Friction and repeated use may cause yarn breakage and surface damage. It is not repairable once it’s damaged. The fabric may pile up lint and fuzz on the surface. Please handle with care.” Translated: If you get a hole in this, you’re fucked!
Oh yeah? Well I don’t think so. I’ve worn the sweater a half dozen times already and my patch job is still working just fine.
This sweater is a used item and it’s a very delicate one. But, it’s not the of the world for these sorts of items if something happens to them. If there was a nasty stain on it, that would be a different story, but a tiny hole is easy to fix up for most fabrics, especially natural fiber ones.
Warning: second half of this post has an extreme amount of profanity. Seriously, if you get easily offended by any and ALL profanity, stop reading now.
In other news, I spent 5 hours in a car dealership today, holding my tongue and mentally wanting to punch the shit out of the super annoying sales person who made awful jokes and clearly just thought that if she could get Z and I to laugh at her, she’d get the money out of us she wanted. Don’t think so BI-ATCH!
If there’s one thing Z knows – it’s cars. He’s a total car fan and knows how the pricing structure works for them and what’s part of a true cost for the car and what’s just a dealership bullshit cost. By the end of the day the sales rep did fuck us over – a teensy bit, but not nearly as much as she probably would’ve liked. We agreed on a price for the car, then the fucking cunt worked backwards to make the price we agreed upon, the end sales price after rebates, which then bumped up the true sales price of the car, which was NOT the agreed upon price. Z immediately caught it and said no, the price is AFTER rebates and she flat out said, “Then you’d be home by now” – meaning there would not have been a sale and she said there was no possible way to go lower because that’s the invoice price (which is a LIE – when they say you are already paying the “invoice price” that’s not entirely true – car companies give dealerships incentives so their invoice pricing is after the incentives and not the real invoice price of the car). I was ready to stand up and pummel the cunt right then and there for that. She then countered that he was already getting over $7k off the sticker price (irrelevant, you stupid bitch!), and he shook hands (also fucking irrelevant – a hand shake is a fucking posturing gesture and means nothing – the only thing that matters in the end is the signature on the line) on the price listed after the rebates because there was no talk of rebates before. She left us to talk and Z did say he should’ve thought of that, but that still doesn’t discount the fact that she flat out changed the price of the car that was agreed upon. Our paying the post rebates price still means we are paying for taxes and loan pricing for the cost before rebates. I was ready to walk out and I wanted to just to see the bitch’s angry face fall out of shock because she was already losing her composure by the second, but Z’s got a much softer temperament than I do. I’m more angry about it than him. It only upped the monthly cost by just over $10 and while he was thoroughly pissed that she finagled around him like that, he decided he wasn’t going to let it ruin the car for him. He gave her a dirty look and then said he’d agree to that cost and then turned away from her. She then barely managed to put up her chipper attitude again and said, “Normally I’d say let’s take photos…. but you don’t seem to want to…” Z and I just glared at her and I shook my head and rolled my eyes at her. He deadpan-face asked for the spare key she hadn’t given him yet.
In the end, he got the exact car he wanted with all the options he wanted for the price (range) he wanted, so he’s a happy camper. I’m still pissed a bit that she swindled us in the way she did, but if he’s happy then I need to get over it.
I don’t have photos of the car because it was nearly dark by the time we got home, but we are going for a ride tomorrow and I’ll take photos then of his new 2018 Ford Mustang GT.
As a general FYI about me: I FUCKING HATE SALES PEOPLE. 99% of them are annoying shit-cocks. Car sales people and realtors are THE WORST. I’m not like most gullible shoppers who go around browsing at things and then with just a smile and a few trendy key words will jump to buy whatever item a sales person has in front of me. I have a feeling most blogs I follow are the same way as me. We know the bullshit and can smell it from miles away. I hate going to malls and having 5 sales associates inside of two minutes ask me if they can help me at all. NO, LEAVE ME ALONE TO LOOK! I usually leave my sunglasses on in stores just for this reason. I know there is the rare gem of a SA, who understands this and I appreciate those people. Most of them are the ones who knowing look me directly in the eye and smile – maybe even give a nod – and then leave me be. But those SAs are very rare and nonexistent at car dealerships. Just sitting there today for so long listening to the other sales people schmoozing on the phone and in person with people made me want to throw up. I online shop as much as possible to bypass all the shit.
Ironically, my boss is the main sales associate and VP for our company. Sometimes on client calls I’ll cringe and want to shout at him: Shut up with the stupid flower shit-talk! No one cares! Get to the fucking point! The client he’s had me working with even called him out on it and said, “getting back to the point…”, which made me laugh. It’s always so cringey-bad when clients call sales rep out on the crap that doesn’t matter. Most of the time the flower-shit-speak doesn’t even make sense. It’s a bunch of trendy catch-all words meant to make the client feel like they are getting something good. If you actually listen to the words, you’ll know they mean nothing. It’s pure shit coming right out of the mouth instead of the ass.
Anyhow, we came home, had some scotch and dinner and now we are going to play Zelda. I told Z he owes me several hours of game play tonight for my behaving so well at the dealership. (the bitch seriously has no idea how lucky she is I kept my mouth shut…)
Monday: Yohji shirt, company vest, Everlane pants.
I’m sure many can relate to this: A new idea comes to mind and there’s lots of excitement to make it happen, but when the reality of it comes to fruition the results being a disappointment feel like an understatement.
First of all, I’m not sure what to make of my basement set up right now for photos. I’m using the photo light I bought again and while it’s definitely bright enough, I still feel the photos are lacking severely.
Secondly, the above outfit didn’t look half as good as it did in my head. I wanted to try out a mini project this week where I wear a variety of tops with the Everlane E2 Pant. After browsing Kick Pleat and ogling all the pretty photos on Death by Elocution I thought my problem was not mixing around my clothes enough and I wanted to experiment more with different silhouettes. Well, what will I know works with those pants if I don’t take several photos of them with different tops? So the idea was to wear these pants all week long with different tops in an effort to figure out what really works. Monday’s photo doesn’t really seem to work at all – not even for a solid black outfit. I was so cold I ended up throwing on my company vest to keep me warm all day so I figured I’d take a photo with that too.
I really don’t think the lighting is doing this outfit justice at all. I felt much more put together wearing this. Also, the half-tucking the sweater I felt helped the look. I was much warmer today like this. Note to self: work on posture in photos. I look hunched over but I’m really not. This photo really isn’t doing this outfit justice at all. Or maybe the outfit isn’t nearly as great as I feel in it.
I’ve been eyeing up a lot of stuff on COS lately, which seems to be another version of Everlane, but with better colors and more styles to choose from. I know they are owned by H&M, which then raises the question: how sustainable/ethical of a company are they? Is the quality really that much better since their price points almost match Everlane exactly? Or is it just about the same? I’ve read reports that there are sizing issues with their catalog in the same vein as Everlane. I was surprised to see that I’d be more of a size 6 with COS when I looked at their charts. I do like the look of the clothes better on COS, but I’m wondering if this is just settling for another version of Everlane that may be plagued with the exact same issues of weird sizing and quality that seems great, but ends up being a bigger disappointment down the line. Does anyone have any experience with them?
Also, who exactly is the person behind Death by Elocution? Is she a model? Is she a photographer? Is she a millionaire or a trust fund baby who can afford all those gorgeous clothes all the time? I love the feed, but it had me wondering just how the heck she obtains all those items. It’s also highly frustrating that she doesn’t list what the clothes are. I get that she doesn’t have to because it’s her blog to do with as she pleases, but sometimes I really want to know what a product is she’s wearing. Ok, like 90% of the time I want to know. I started looking at COS because I saw a sweater she posted from there and you could see the tag on it. But I can’t make out the tags in many other photos she posts.
Monday: Limi Feu sweater, Under Armour long sleeve, Rachel Comey pants. I drove home early from work because a nasty ice storm hit that late afternoon/evening. Look at the nice natural lighting in this photo! I also moved where I was so I wasn’t against the dark curtains. I do have on my workout leggings underneath the RC pants. It was one of those days where wearing my workout clothes under my regular clothes helps me get down to the cold basement to work out.
Wednesday: Banana Republic sweater, Everlane pants. I skipped Tuesday’s photo because I was in a very bad state. My boss gave me a project to work on… that’s actually more like a department position transitional move… It depends on how well this goes plus several other factors in play. I think he’s pushing me to join the Business Development team, but I’m not sure yet. Either way, this new project has me working with clients more and I honestly feel like I’m being thrown in the deep end of the pool and told to swim. He’s also not that great at give direct orders, which is what I need. He’s more of a casual conversationalist and then assumes you’ll know what to do. Nope. Not me. Not at all. So I didn’t get the work done he told me to because 1 – I had no clue on how to do it and 2 – I wasn’t entirely clear on what his directive was for me. At the end of the day he and I sort of “argued” (more like confused banter about who said what and who assumed what) about it and I went home feeling like I’d failed at some BIG but I couldn’t tell what because I had no clue. Just before I left work several other coworkers and mangers assured me it wasn’t me. Not entirely anyway. Wednesday, we met up and I learned how to assert myself with him and stop him in his tracks when I needed a clearer explanation on things. I’m a very linear person when it comes to what I need to know and how I need to know it. He’s the exact opposite, but because he’s the one showing me this new stuff I had to put my foot down and stop him before he veered too far off track. I also scheduled lots of little tutorials throughout the day with people more knowledgable about the software I’d be using for this work. So Wednesday was super busy, but much better.
Thursday (today): Everlane sweater, Rachel Comey pants. Today felt downright warm compared to what it’s been over the past several weeks. That’s really sad considering it was only in the 40s. Tomorrow will be a heat wave in the 60s!
Since working on this new project at work I’ve had my head a-buzz with new things and felt confused, drained, and fuzzy all week. I’m glad for the opportunity, but I can tell it will definitely challenge me. I’ve only been there for just over 2 months and it feels as though I’ve been working there forever and am now learning something new. The work culture there is great. Even though it’s a much more corporate environment than what I’m used to, my coworkers are super helpful. It feels more communal and friendly than my last job, which was about as laid back as you could get.
There were many other things I wanted to write about in this post, but now they all feel like things that can go in their own – mostly because I need to develop my thoughts on them more. I don’t schedule out posts nor do I have drafts. I’m always just sorta winging it with this because I never wanted to be too serious with it.
So tonight will be spent watching new season anime I need to catch up on and maybe playing more Zelda: Breath of the Wild. Last night the hubs and I played the first major dungeon of the game, but it wasn’t too terribly hard. Considering the challenges in it though, I have a feeling this is just a teaser to many more that will be infinitely more difficult. Yikes.
The alarm went off and instead of snoozing I knew I’d either have to scrape a little snow off my car (might as well get up now so I have time to do it) or I’d get to go back to sleep. I walked downstairs to get a street view. Nope. Not happening. It was so dark out with so much snow blowing it looked like it was still 3 am out there. I crawled back into bed with my phone and no sooner than I pulled up my boss’s contact info, I got a text from him not to bother coming in today. Back to sleep for another two hours. Bliss.
Got up again. Z was already awake and fed the cats. He’s working from home today and able to catch up on a lot of work. He said today would be a good day to play Zelda, but he’s better off doing what work he can at home. His new job inundates him every single day and he needs help getting it all done. Peace and quiet at home for him to get things organized will greatly help. I make a hot breakfast and play Animal Crossing Pocket Camp.
Candles lit, heat blasting, mugs of hot tea, my wool blanket and video games. That is the extent of today’s agenda. I’ve heard the plows go by 5 times already. The wind is so strong now it blows all the snow back onto the the street in minutes. We were only supposed to get 4 or 5 inches of snow max, but it seems like we may get more. Note to self: double layer clothing tomorrow – it’ll be annoyingly cold.
Tuesday: Everlane black long sleeve, Limi Feu sweater (gift from Z for xmas), Yohji pants. I put up different curtains before the holidays and while they’ve given the living room a nice color lift, they’re not doing my outfit photos any favors. I may have to find a different area of the house to do them until the daylight savings changes and I get more natural light again.
Wednesday: Banana Republic button down and grey cashmere sweater (gift from mom for xmas), Rachel Comey Lure Pant.
The Limi Feu sweater, BR sweater and RC pants are all new and (aside from one item currently on it’s way) the last items I bought in 2017. I don’t plan on buying any clothes for quite a while. I don’t really plan on buying much of anything for a long time.
I was shocked when I got the Limi Feu sweater, considering how expensive it was. I have some used designer clothes on my Amazon wishlist – I found through Japanese discounters – they aren’t on Amazon. I put them there for my reference more than anything else. The sweater is wool and linen and kept me quite warm on Tuesday when I was back in a freezing cold office. The heat was off over the holidays. The BR sweater is also very warm, but the V on it is so low my neck and chest were getting cold! The RC Lure Pant was a gift to myself. They went on sale, twice, and I jumped at the second time the price lowered. They are very high waisted (almost at my bra when I sit down) and low crotched and baggy and extremely comfortable. They look like worker pants in a way and I want to pair them now with my 45rpm clothes. They are very long as well, but I prefer the dorky look of cuffing them up high versus getting them hemmed. I’ll be wearing them a lot this winter along with the Sacai pants.
Upping my workout routine and tracking my reps again with what few exercises I can do while in the boot. My pull-ups are atrocious so I’m focusing on doing more of those. Started on December 30th and when January 1st rolled around my arms were cursing me, but I forced myself to work out. Now my core muscles are cranky with me. I need to look up some more stretching exercises to do post work out.