Long weekend, one outfit

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Acne Studios sweater – Grana jeans – Adidas shoes

I have worn this outfit in some manner for three of the four days I’ve had off over the long holiday weekend. I had on my Allbirds shoes with the sweater and jeans for Thanksgiving when I was at the in-laws house. I wore the same again on Friday for going to see Thom Yorke in concert in the city. Saturday I wore an old Everlane sweatshirt because we did house cleaning, but the sweater came out again on Sunday for a walk in the park. Z asked if I’m going to live in this sweater all winter. I think this is proof that’s a given.

Thursday and Friday I did exercise so I only wore the outfit half the day. Sleep in, breakfast, lounge and then change into workout gear and drag myself to the basement. Afterwards a shower and throw on the outfit for whatever I had going on.  Fun fact: Z can wear this sweater too. I had him try it on and it fits him perfectly.

Saturday night we had severe heavy rain for six solid hours. If it was colder it would’ve been one hell of a snow storm. The temperature warmed up a bit due to the rains and Sunday everyone had the same idea we did – get outside while we still can enjoy it. The weather was in the mid 50s. The park we went to has part of a river that runs through it but due to the rains the park was split in half by the overflow that prevented people from taking the upper hill trails. There were only two trails that weren’t under water or cut off from the bridge flooding so the walkways were packed. Surprisingly, lots of people were out playing disc golf. The fairways for those were soupy with mud.

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There were plenty of other things I wanted to get done during the long weekend, but I’m not complaining nor bothered by not having completed them. Sometimes taking a proper break is necessary and not doing anything is a good thing.

I did buy a couple things online on Black Friday, but most of them were things I generally would’ve bought regardless of what day it was. I just happened to get them for a little cheaper this time.

 

 

Fake Friday

fake friday

Everlane sweater – Grana Jeans – Frye Carly Chukkas

The necklace above was the first gift Z gave me when we started dating. I don’t remember what it was for, but I know he got it from an online store of a friend of mine at the time. I’m not sure what this says about him or me, but my boss said it looked like it could be used as a weapon. I think this confirms he’s terrified of me to some degree. (I always call him out on not getting stuff done and waiting until the last minute.)

I’ve been upping my exercise a bit. I guess I should say I’m changing it up as well. I need to address a few issues with the tendonitis in both my legs, but other than that I’m feeling a bit better now that I’m focusing more on getting back into shape. There is something very uplifting about feeling stronger – even if it means feeling the DOMS in my  ams and lats from doing so many chin-ups and push-ups lately.

Old self

old self

Uniqlo flannel top – Grana jeans – Coach boots

For some reason I’ve been feeling very raw over the past 48 hours and so bear with this post full of navel gazing and pondering.

This is an “old me” outfit. It’s probably one I’d wear in some variation every day, seven days a week several years ago. Something made me think – ok, let’s do this Casual Friday thing the old school way. I felt like I needed to go back to where I was and simply accept that sometimes I do need that version of me. I’ve now been wondering a lot if I’m changing myself too much for the sake of the change and not because it’s been what’s best for me.

When I got to the office the admin complimented my outfit, especially the boots. She said they looked nicely faded. I took a paper towel and wiped away dust from the top of my boot: Nope, it’s just dust, it’s not really faded. I’ve not worn these boots in two years. I joked about keeping the dust on to keep the faded look and she cheerfully said I must keep the dust on! She also liked the whole ensemble in general. I then noticed my top was covered in cat hair and dust because it had been in the back of my closet. It also smelled a little musty and I probably should’ve washed it before wearing it. I think my perfume did a good job of keeping the musty smell away unless people got really close to me. Now reading all of that – it sounds kinda gross, doesn’t it? But one thing did stand out to me – I looked “normal”. Granted, what is normal is relative, but compared to what I normally wear, I basically looked like most other people in the office today or like I’d match well with typical women my age – minus the pram and two kids in tow. But again, I didn’t feel like I wasn’t being myself – it was just going back to a version of me I’d not visited in a while. That got me thinking – what is the real me nowadays?

Talia‘s brutally honest and raw post about wanting things she doesn’t need really struck a chord with me. Her honesty in that post felt like a breath of fresh air and also like a kir of liqueur that I’d sip and savor, comforted in the familiarity of knowing her words mirrored mine internally – the difference being she had the guts to write it. The desire to stand out and not wear the same things as everyone else, but also wanting all the things everyone wears is a real struggle. With so much marketing around us – especially Pinterest, which I think is one of the most clever and fucking demonic forms of modern marketing touted as a virtual mood board – it’s really hard not to be wanting something that someone else has whether it be a blog influencer or not. Raise of hands, who else has a wishlist on their Pinterest like I do?

That post also reinforced the fact that I really don’t need anything and need to stop this trigger-happy reaction of adding items to wishlists because all that does is itch the instant gratification cat in me. And then I purr when I decide to buy the item and then go sleep on some other item for six months until I feel like coming back to it. It really is a vicious cycle and I need to stop justifying getting stuff because I can.

Just in the same way that exercise does make me feel better, I need to get back to doing things that really matter and will help me emotionally and mentally.

There is a guy in my office who goes to concerts almost every other week. He’s around my age or older and a lot of the shows he goes to seem very nostalgic in nature: Def Leopard, Metallica, Dave Matthews Band, Jon Bon Jovi, etc…. As we stood at the microwave (because there’s always a line at lunch) I asked him what his next concert was because he seemed to go to a lot of them. He simply said: I prefer experiences to things.

That statement alone sent me into an emotional vortex of WTF have I been doing buying all these clothes when I could’ve been doing everything else instead! Even my work itself was reminding me of things I used to do – like photography. I’m in the process of figuring out if the money we spend on our marketing company is worth it or if I can handle doing it. We’d cut back money on that expense to the company, but of course I’d be compensated for doing the work instead. Today I brought in my camera, dusted off the dingy light box I found in one of the back shop cubicles and started taking product photos. I then went to different departments to take a few shots for B-Roll footage here and there. Many didn’t mind at all that I was taking photos of them working and some were really happy to help out. It reminded me of other photography work I’d done in the past and how even doing mundane shots of products still takes a certain amount of creative effort. When I looked at the photos on my computer I kinda pat myself on the back – I still got it. Not only that, it made me actually want to work on things for work. That is fucking scary! But back to the point, the creative outlet of doing something completely stopped me in my tracks and instead of browsing online all I want to do now is go outside and take photos of the autumn foliage while I still can. I was really big into taking outdoor photos, especially close ups of plants. 50-60mm fixed lenses are my jam and I pray to the almighty Bokeh. Also, for several years I took photos of my breakfasts and even published a book with photos and recipes on Blurb.

One last thing to add to this already totally meandering, bumbling entry – I love anime. Karandi‘s post about loving anime and the stigma that comes when people find out was another raw one that nailed it for me. I’m over 40, childfree, and I prefer to watch anime over anything else on tv/internet. I don’t have cable, but I do have Netflix, Crunchyroll, and HiDive streaming accounts. I’m lucky enough that most of my friends really DGAF what I watch, but they will definitely berate me for not attempting to watch other shows. If anything, now they’ve all got kids they come to me for recommendations on shows they’d like their kids to watch if available on whatever services they have. However, I was a bit nervous about letting people know at work. While some do think it’s weird and give me the side eye, most others just shrug it off or don’t care. I’m wondering if there’s a certain age where we simply DGAF because I know that’s mostly the case for me at this point in my life, but also seems to apply to many around me who are in similar age brackets or much older. There is a younger engineer who also watches anime and we chit chat about the shows we’re watching and give each other recs as well. He’s really big into JoJo and I’m amazed I’ve convinced him to watch Banana Fish all the way through since BL stuff is very much not his cup of tea. He did remind me to watch the rest of Castlevania on Netflix, which I’ll be doing this weekend.

Like Karandi, I too love the music and characters and over-the-top plots. Considering tv shows that are popular these days some of the anime I watch seems on par when it comes to oddness, but there’s definitely a difference due to the medium itself. Having that oddness animated and then taken to DefCon Levels of Exaggeration is most of the fun with these shows. Today I even admit to the admin that I loved anime music so much I usually listen to that more than anything else. I’m a total anime soundtrack junkie and even have specific playlists for exercising, chilling out, etc…. Kuroshitsuji is my go-to for plane trips for zoning out/falling asleep. When I’m gardening? Totally a mix of all seasons of Natsume Yuujinchou. Maybe I’m hoping I’ll find yokai in my yard.

I don’t write about anime much here anymore, but I still very much love it and still watch it.

I think I’ve rambled on enough now. I’m still on the fence with myself and my style, but maybe that’s because I’m over-thinking it and need stop thinking about that and DO things I love again. Thank you for reading thus far. Now have a good weekend.

 

Being still

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Yohji Yamamoto sweater – Grana tank top – Uniqlo pant – Fog Linen house slippers

I’m posting this weekend photo simply because Michelle’s comment about this sweater being special and only for lounging around proved to be exactly true. I’ve been fighting off the plague making the office rounds and for the past week I’ve had a slightly sore throat. I’ll start off the day fine, but within a couple hours my throat starts up and then some days I’ll get a few body chills or aches, but nothing too bad to incapacitate me or make me want to leave work. Over the weekend I started to feel worse and stayed in this room – my study – all day drinking lots of hot tea and playing easy, mindless video games. This sweater definitely helped make me aware of not needing to move too much and force me to be still so I can recover. It’s also extremely warm for being so lightweight.

This is for posterity

Work, personified this week:

Wesley whimpering = me.

Also, why is dealing with clients akin to that scared feeling of having a tooth pulled in the frightening manner of putting a string around it and waiting in anxiety for someone across the room to slam the door?

Thursday: Knock Knock linen top, YY skirt, Frye shoes.

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I’ve been so much about shoes lately and yet all I want to wear are these Frye ones because they are the most comfortable. They are also the most beat up.

Friday: Grana tank top, Everlane button down, Rachel Comey Lure pant, Jil Sander shoes.

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I ended up leaving work early because something upset my stomach. I had felt off the night before and when I woke up I was nauseous and only got worse throughout the day. I’m not sure what it was, but hopefully I’m over it now. I ended buying take-out from a Japanese place for dinner since I was craving udon noodle soup. It did not disappoint although I was terrified the clams in the soup might set me off. Luckily they didn’t, but I didn’t eat them. Do food allergies only work if you directly eat the item in question? I thought that since they were cooking in the broth the soup base itself might be questionable then. The terror of it making my condition worse didn’t stop me from enjoying the soup though. Have I mentioned Stubborn is my middle name?

yuki and bento

Yuki and Bento. When I was taking photos off my camera I saw these and realized Z had taken some random photos again. I can see why he took it though – this is a rare moment where they both are in the same space and not fighting. They generally tolerate each other and only in dire situations (aka winter) will they curl up together to sleep, but even that is limited. Normally, Bento chases Yuki and she screams bloody murder. There have been several instances of Z and I walking into a room after hearing a commotion and seeing them rolling across the floor in a mass of hissing and screaming claws and limbs.

Archana‘s post about house plants rekindled a little flame I’ve had going in me since we’ve moved into this house. When I lived in Oklahoma I always had lots of house plants. The weather is much warmer there and cold seasons don’t last too long. My running joke about that state was there are two seasons: summer and January. I used to be the Plant Mom and friends who had plants that were dying always gave them to me to care for. However, that’s changed since I’ve been living on the east coast where there are still only two seasons: rain-forest-humid-with-a-side-of-sun and Antarctica. The summers here are ten times more humid that I ever expected they would be and then the winters are so dry Bento is trained to wince when we pet him between November and March (Yuki freaks out from the static and runs away). This house does get a decent amount of light, but the drastic temperature changes make keeping house plants extremely difficult. But I do miss having lots of plants like I used to and will try to make more of an effort to keep them alive.

 

Give me all the long skirts

Once again I’m sorta brain dead (from work of course) and don’t really have much to say.  I have a couple new items I’ve bought and I’m ready for my hair appointment NOW even though it’s next week.

Last Friday: Yesstyle linen top, Grana jeans, Jil Sander shoes.

last friday

Monday: Ann Demeulemeeser top, Uniqlo pant, Dries Van Noten shoes.

The shoes are new and I got them from TRR on final sale. I fell in love with the ombre look of them and had been stalking them for a while. As soon as I got them I panicked because I thought they’d be too small, but they fit a bit better than expected. The toe box area is fine but the mid section and heel were tight. So I ordered some shoe stretchers and they helped tremendously. I’m completely amazed at how much more comfortable the shoes are now. I don’t know what kind of leather they are, but they do wrinkle up quite a bit. I’m not bothered by that and figure with time it’ll add some charm to them.

mondayDries Van Noten shoes

Tuesday: Everlane top, YY pant, Lems shoes.

This outfit was very comfortable and I thought I looked rather good in it – with the exception of the shoes. I was stretching out my other shoes more and it was raining all day so I didn’t want to wear my EF mules. The photo I don’t think is doing this outfit any justice at all. Also, Yuki looks a little mental.

Tuesday

Wednesday: old black top, Yohji Yamamoto skirt, Dries Van Noten shoes.

I’m still astonished I got this skirt for $33 on TRR. I looked it over several times when it arrived, thinking it surely had to be a fake, but no, it’s the real deal. The token wool fabric, which is exactly like the pant in the photo above, the flawless stitching, the tags fully intact… Holy crap, did I really just get a YY item for only $33? This was another final sale item and I was apprehensive about it because it’s a size 3, which is technically “big” but I’ve found I need to size up in the more fitted clothes he makes. This is a perfect example of the designer size not meaning fuck-all. What it boils down to is knowing your own size backwards and forwards in inches and centimeters. The sizing in inches was indicated so I decided to take a gamble on it and it fits perfectly.

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I love the length. There is a slit in the front that comes up almost to my knees. It is a little tight for walking, but not annoyingly so. In fact, I was rather glad the skirt was making me walk slower on my breaks today. I was kinda worried the flaps on the waist would look clownish, but I think they are the best detail of all now. There is some fraying at the seams on the flaps, but they don’t look so distorted to make the skirt seem dumpy or overly used. I can easily see myself wearing this skirt with tights and a big sweater in cooler weather.

YY has turned me into a skirt fan. I’ve never really liked skirts before and I still shy away from any skirt that’s knee length or above. I have my eyes on a wool CdG skirt that is big and fluffy and looks perfect for layering in winter weather. I’ve noticed that YY skirts are more fitted for straight styled silhouettes and Morticia Addams-esque in their design, which I love. Most CdG skirts are bulbous and fluffy looking. I didn’t think I’d like that, but I’m willing to experiment with that kind of silhouette simply because they look comfortable.

Weekend staple

Thursday outfit and all the silly things I keep in my study: Everlane top, Won Hundred pant, Lems shoes.

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Z took this photo and wanted to get Yuki in the shot. The photo shows more my collection of manga and animal crossing figurines than anything else.

Friday: Grana tank, Banana Republic denim shirt, Y’s pant, Adidas shoes.

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While I don’t always wear jeans on “casual Friday” or dress casually in the way many do for the office, I always make sure to wear comfy shoes whenever I can.

Sunday: Yosemite tee, Uniqlo linen pant.

post hike

This is a post-hike photo. Z wanted to go out to a park so we went to one of our stand-bys and it was crowded. However, we tend to meander off into the woods on the less taken trails – or rather trails that no one uses anymore and are so overgrown and full of mud no one in their right mind would bother hiking them anymore. Yep, that’s how we roll. We both came back with muddy shoes and pants.

Weekend usual: cotton top from Yesstyle and Ys pant.weekend

I wore this outfit all day Saturday and put it on again after I showered when we got home from our hike. Who knew lightweight wool pants would become my summer staple. I seriously love these and want to wear them all the time.

I’ve spent several hours catching up on Accidental Icon posts and finally remembered to add it in my regular blog list. I really like the weekend links she posts.  And I’ve decided I want everything from Margaret Howell’s Autumn ’18 collection.

Also, I made a very expensive shoe purchase and am anxiously awaiting my precious to arrive. Unlike clothes, I tend to have a longer running relationship with shoes. I wear them down and they have holes and stains and tears and all manner of scars on them by the time they are retired. The slippers in the above photo are a perfect example. There’s three holes in them right now but I can’t be bothered to buy new ones because I haven’t found any others I like yet. So when it comes to buying shoes, I don’t feel so bad splurging because if I like them enough I know they will be The Ones I wear until death. I’m still wearing the Lems shoes that are cracking because the leather is cheap. They are comfortable and an easy black shoe to wear so while they aren’t doing my outfits any favors I still wear them. Chalk it up to laziness in a way, but until I find the right replacements I keep almost hate-wearing my old shoes. I’m leaning more towards quality now in shoes versus easy wear, especially since I have an ankle condition to consider. I can wear my Frye shoes and they don’t bother my ankle at all so it is possible for me to wear good shoes that look nice and not be worried about my ankle getting all lumpy by the end of the day.

All the same

Tuesday: Yohji Yamamoto top, Won Hundred pants, Eileen Fisher mules.

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This is the last of the new-to-me three YY items I’ve bought recently. Nothing overly ground breaking. A simple cotton short sleeve mock neck top. Not only am I starting to embrace more white in my wardrobe (at least for summer anyway…), I’m really enjoying buying second hand items like these. I could’ve easily gotten something similar that’s brand new and easily cost 1/3 of the price I paid for this top. However, it’s the quality that makes this worthwhile. This cotton is like the black tank and my turtleneck. I love it.

The greatest difficulty this week has been dressing for two kinds of weather, daily: Office and Summer. The office is freezing and I occasionally have to go outside to thaw out from the AC chill. So far, this summer has been stifling hot with so much humidity it’s hard to breathe outside. So I’m frozen indoors and turn into a puddle outside.

Thursday: Everlane top, Issey Miyake pants, Eileen Fisher mules.

Friday

Friday: 45rpm top, Grana jeans, Jil Sander shoes.

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Looking at this outfit, no one would know it was 90F outside. That’s how bad the AC chill in the office has me covering up. It’s ridiculous.

Saturday: Knock Knock Linen top, Grana jeans, Adidas shoes.

 

saturday

After the Friday night thunderstorms, the weather chilled out and Saturday was gorgeous. I’d hurt my back somehow exercising and was cursing myself for doing so because Saturday would’ve been perfect for doing much needed yard work. Instead, we drove out to our favorite orchard and bought several pints of blueberries and apricots. We always get lots of blueberries and freeze half of them so we have some to eat throughout the winter.

Afterwards, we went to a nice restaurant for lunch and then headed to the Bowman nature preserve. It’s a gated area people pay a fee to get into, but it’s got lots of hiking trails and has lots of information on local wildflowers and plants. They sell local plants they grow in the area and have a full visitor center with an education center and mini natural history museum. The hiking trails are short, but really nice and being in a completely forested area makes hiking there much more comfortable in the summer.

We hadn’t planned on going here, but I’m glad we did and our Saturday spent outside was more enjoyable this way than weeding than the yard.

All done with the nothing

drink

Tonight’s drink: Filibuster – rye whisky, lemon juice, maple syrup, egg white, black walnut bitters. It’s basically a whisky sour but with maple syrup instead of simple syrup. I subbed black walnut bitters for Angostura because I wanted something a bit drier.

 

 

Wednesday

Wednesday: 45rpm shirt, Yohji pants.

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Thursday: Everlane sweater (over Everlane long sleeve), Rachel Comey pants. friday

Friday: Banana Republic top (J Crew tee underneath), Grana jeans.

Every day this week I’ve worn Girlfriend Collective leggings underneath all pants/jeans. It’s been cold.

Late Wednesday the Comptroller for the company asked me: “So, do you have the Business Development Budget 2017 form filled out? Um… the what what? So after some digging around looking for a file he told me to dig up on the network drive, there it is – the budget – that hasn’t been updated since July….

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Fuck.

Yeah, so that’s not done. I had no clue I even needed to update it and apparently neither did the last two people who held this position before me! YAY, guess who gets the fucking annoying task of updating it all now when I have zero time to do my regular work to begin with because it’s the beginning of the month? Ugh. It’s ok. He’s giving me time to work on it, but I swear this has become the status quo lately. I finds out about x,y, and z things that apparently fall under my duties but NO ONE informed me of so I could keep track of it and build it into my schedule to work on. *head*desk* I’ve been trying to get it done, but of course several other larger and more pressing things needed to be done ASAP so it’s now getting bumped to next week. Depending on how Monday looks with my client reports I might be able to knock it out soon or I might be working some late nights.

So in other news… it’s February. *blink*

January flew by and was so busy I didn’t have much time to think of spending, but here’s some numbers:

Discretionary spending this month: $36.75 (1 affogato – $6.75 and two special event movie tickets for Mary and the Witch’s Flower- $30.00)

Unexpected charges that should generally be put into my budgeting, but I never think of until they happen: $31.79 – oil for oil change in my car (my husband actually does the oil change himself) and vet hospital: $125.44 – wet and dry prescription cat food (expensive little buggers!).

That’s it. All other shopping was groceries for meals we ate, which was $285. I buy groceries half the month and Z buys for the other half. We both alternate the smaller grocery runs for little pick up items after the two large grocery orders. I was thinking I’d be ok to buy a few things by February, but now I honestly can’t think of anything I need or want so I’ll wait and maybe see if I can get through February without spending much either. I’m curious what my expenses and credit card statement would look like after another month of very lean spending.

Z and I both lamented the horrible, busy week we’ve both had at our respective jobs. Hence my need for a cocktail and he immediately grabbed his favorite beer when we got home.  He told me throughout the day at his work, a video was constantly being played to cheer people up. This is an oldie and a total ear worm. You have been warned! If you don’t want ear worm do not watch I’m a Kitty Cat. (Or enjoy your ear worm and smile a lot.)

 

Auuuuugggghhh

You know that sound Charlie Brown makes, when he tries to kick the football and Lucy steals it away at the last second? He lets out a yell and you can tell it’s a mixture of frustration at what happened, but also knowing it was going to happen anyway? That’s been my week thus far. And it’s only Tuesday!

Tuesday

Sweater from Yesstyle, Grana jeans.

Boring outfit is boring – in photo. My boss actually complimented me on it and was shocked I was wearing jeans. I wondered what rock he’d been under.

I completely forgot to take my outfit photo yesterday. I’m still stressing out a little over the changes happening at work and yesterday I got home and immediately changed into workout clothes without thinking. I was halfway done with my workout when I remembered.

I’ve been having a lot of those, “wait…..what?” moments. This whole month I’ve been good about not spending any money (just a couple movie tickets and an affogato) and I kept saying to myself: Ok, don’t spend until February. Then I’ll look at my credit card balance and check if my predictions for discretionary spending were on target so I can set up a proper budget for shopping. And before I knew it, it’s almost February and I’ve not had two minutes to really think about spending because I’ve been so busy. Plus, I’ll need to reassess my expenses again because this month saw me being offered a 20% raise and new position. Wait… what?

I’ve been a nervous wreck the past week and a half because I knew this was coming. It’s not as if I wasn’t prepared for it, but A) this is a whole new set of responsibilities that I really need to step up my game for and B) my new numbers would affect my choice of benefits program now that I’m eligible and the deadline is February 1st – hurry the hell up, where is my paperwork, BOSS!? (No worries now, got it taken care of – finally.) My biggest worry currently is being properly trained. When I first started working for this company, I had someone sit with me and teach me everything. Now, I’m having to scramble and search for the information myself. I do have plenty of help from some people, but the main ones who could train me best are the busiest and already being pulled in 20 different directions. I’m trying to do what I can with what resources I know I have right now, but it’s still very piecemeal.

One of the directors told me she’s really glad I’m doing so well and I’m very much needed there. She said I’m a “go-getter” and I corrected her. I’m not a go-getter at all. There’s nothing I want to go get at the company and if it came down to that, I’d probably fail. However, I have a good work ethic and sense of responsibility. If I’m going to be paid well to do a job, I need to make sure I’m proving that it was worthwhile to put me in that position. That is what I’m afraid of most – not being able to prove that I’m worth what I’m being paid to do. I’ve worked at plenty of places where I’ve been severely underpaid and know that I should demand more for what I’m doing. Now, I’m in the opposite position of being given a lot more than I was expecting and it’s making me panic, wondering how I’ll get the information I need to do the job well. My new position is very similar to other ones I’ve done in the past. It’s essentially customer service work. However, before I was mostly working in retail. Now I’m working for a corporation where the “customer” is another company and losing one of them could mean losing tens or hundreds of thousands of dollars instead of just a couple hundred or a couple thousand. I understand that the amount of money I’m being paid correlates to the amount of responsibility I have to keep these customers happy because of how much they are spending with our company. But it’s all still very new to me and I think my little freak outs lately are keeping me centered and anxious to do as much as I can as quickly as I can.

I don’t even know if what I just wrote makes sense, but it’s cathartic to write it out. Z just asked if I want to play more Zelda and my attention span and focus for this post just disintegrated. When do I want to play Zelda? ALWAYS.