Black textures

monday

Monday: Everlane sweater, Brass Clothing pants, Shoe: Vince.  I don’t think I’ll ever stop wearing blue and black together. Remember the old saying that navy and black don’t go together? Well, screw that. That combination is my favorite. Anyway, wearing a new Everlane sweater since my red lux one got a big hole in it. This one feels a bit more substantial and I like the tight crop neck on it. The sweater is cropped a bit, but I like it that way. The sleeves do feel a bit long, even for a small.

tuesday

Tuesday: striped linen long sleeve tee – Yesstyle, Uniqlo pant, Land’s End cardigan. Oh hey, it’s my old favorite cardigan again that doesn’t really go with anything but I wear it with everything regardless.

wednesday

Wednesday: Everlane sweater; Yohji skirt/pant, (Girlfriend Collective workout leggings on underneath). This was my favorite and most comfortable outfit of the week. It’s hard to tell in the photos but I really liked the texture combination of the washed out black cotton sweater with the black velvet with linen trims. The suede on the Vince shoe for another texture plus. Wearing my workout leggings on the days I need to workout really helps kick my butt into doing so when I get home.

In general, I wear a lot of black in the winter months, so I think I need to change up the textures more so I don’t look like a black hole.

I didn’t take photos for Thursday (Thanksgiving) or Friday. I wore the same outfit both days and it was just jeans and a sweater. We had the hub’s immediate family over for the holiday so it was very casual and small.

Yesterday we put up our xmas lights outside. This might be the last year we do the roof line lights because the hubs is much more afraid of being on the roof than he realizes. I always have to play the psych doctor and positive-talk him through the whole thing and then give him gentle, explicit directions on how to get down.

I’m trying to up my exercise days now that I’m wearing the boot and I can’t do my barbell squats or dead lifts or weighted lunges. Ugh. I kinda failed this week, but I’ll just blame the holiday (yeah I know it’s really my own fault) and get back to it next week.

I also caved in and got Animal Crossing Pocket Camp. I can’t resist the Animal Crossing games. Pocket Camp is really cute and the graphics are amazing compared to the 3DS games. I prefer playing it on my iPad though instead of my tiny phone screen.

pocket camp

Here is my ID if anyone else plays it and wants to add more friends.

 

 

Crying (inside) for the next 4 months

This week flew by incredibly fast.

thursday

Tuesday: Sweater – Halu Maybe from Yesstyle; pants – Uniqlo; shoes – Lems.  This sweater is the best winter sweater I own. I love it. When I spread out my arms I look like a giant bat. The hubs calls this my flying squirrel sweater. The turtleneck on it is massive. It’s so long that if I unfolded it all out it would engulf my whole head and flap over my entire face – it’s that big. There’s a tie string for the turtleneck, which is actually two layers. There’s a black layer and an inner grey layer so you can wear it either way. I usually wear the gray out and tuck the tie string under. It’s a cheap, fast fashion buy from one of those huge fast fashion websites and it’s one of the best purchases I’ve ever made. I live in this sweater in winter.

tuesday

Wednesday: Shirt – Yohji Yamamoto (Everlane long sleeve tee underneath for warmth); pants – Brass Clothing; shoes – Lems. This was not a good day. I was late to work due to a dramatic story revolving the alarm clock and the husband. As a result, I was thrown off all day and felt stressed out. At least I looked nice. I took this photo right when I walked in the door so I’m covering up my ID badge I hadn’t taken off my pants yet. Everyone has to wear an ID badge because it has a fob for door access to various parts of the building. Some people have more access than others, depending on department. I’ve never worked some place like this so it’s a bit weird. I’m always afraid I’ll forget my badge each day. I try to keep it in my purse when it’s not on me so I  know where it is.

wednesday

Thursday: Everlane mock neck shirt under an Everlane cotton sweater; pants – Uniqlo; shoes – Allbirds.  This sweater is a few years old and hasn’t really aged well. It’s comfortable, but it’s very flimsy and I feel like it looks too frumpy now. I bought a new Everlane cotton sweater and got it this week. It’s the mock neck cropped one. The cotton is much more substantial so hopefully it’ll last longer without looking bad. In general, I’m finding that Everlane clothes don’t hold up over time nearly as well as I thought they would.  The tees are ok, but the sweaters have been misses so far. The red lux one I wore twice last week got a hole in it so big I can’t wear it anymore. friday

Friday: Sweater – J Crew; jeans – Grana; shoes – Frye. I really like this sweater. It’s thick and comfortable. Since I cut all my hair off I’m constantly looking at turtleneck everything to keep my neck warm. I’m not a huge scarf person so turtlenecks are my only option.

 

vince

For the next 4 months (roughly) these Vince shoes will be the only ones I wear with any and every outfit. Why?

effing boot

Because this shit is happening again. After trying to wear the soft brace for several months I’ve come to realize it’s not going to work at all and I need to wear this damn immobilization boot again. I. HATE. IT. This will be round 3 in this annoying thing.

I’m not messing around anymore and dead serious on getting the tendonitis under control. Also, I still want to punch the doctor I spent near $200 on for visits half a year ago. “Oh, you’ll only need to wear it for 3 weeks and then taper off for the 4th”. MY FUCKING ASS! People who deal with tendonitis – if you go to a doctor, then double, no – TRIPLE the amount of time they tell you to wear an immobilization boot. It’s the strongest tendon in the body and it also takes the longest time to heal of any other tendon in the body.

I’ve read ALL the things about tendonitis I can find online and message boards and everyone says the same thing: most doctors underestimate the healing time. Also, most of them don’t give patients a good idea of how long to do recovery exercises (let alone what kinds they should be doing) BEFORE they can start their regular exercising again. This is how my condition became chronic and I’m sick of it. I was never given a proper gage for when I should do certain activities so I wouldn’t risk tearing the tendon again.

So outfits be fugly for the next 4 months because I’ll be wearing this boot, but whatever. I want to run again.

First week

My new job will be quite taxing and busy, but I’m ok with that. The company culture is friendly, but strained because there are many departments that don’t talk to each other all that well. However, this is par for the course with a larger company. In general, I do like the people I work with, which is always a plus. The kindness shown by people willing to help out there is a breath of fresh air from the “leave me alone” sort of attitude I felt at my old job because so many people there had become complacent from being spoiled so much.

I will definitely need to work on my wardrobe a bit. I was so used to wearing anything I wanted at my old job I didn’t realize how little amount of proper business attire I actually owned.

monday

Monday: Everlane sweater and Brass Clothing ponte pants. I had on my black Lems Nine2five shoes for work but am in slippers when I got home. Although this sweater looks ok on me I’m a bit meh about it. I need to up my sweater game.

tuesday

Tuesday: J Crew sweater and Yohji Yamamoto pants with Lems shoes. It was getting rather cold in the office and I work with a pregnant woman who is always hot so I have to make sure to bring layers.

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Wednesday: Everlane sweater again and Yohji Yamamoto skirt/pants,  Lems Gobi Hi boots and 45rpm wool jacket. The scarf I crocheted myself many years ago.  I wore my workout leggings under the skirt/pants. This is the same skirt I wore to a wedding earlier this summer, but I’m wearing the skirt as pants this time. It was much easier to walk around the office this way.

When I walked in the door my husband immediately said “You look really cute today!” I was rather surprised since I hadn’t even taken my jacket off and he didn’t know what I was wearing under it. He said he liked how the jacket and skirt looked together. I teasingly said, “then take a picture” so we went out in the front yard just before the sun went down and he took these two photos. When I saw the first one I understood what he liked, “so you like this silhouette”. He agreed and said I looked very put together. I looked a little old-timey as well and I think he likes that look too. It’s the first time I’ve heard him be so vocal about my outfits, so now I’m curious what else might peak his interest.

thursday

Thursday: 45rpm long sleeve shirt, Everlane E2 pants, Lems shoes, 45 rpm wool jacket.

My standard blue and black outfit, which I gravitate to a lot.

I didn’t take a photo for Friday. It was casual day in the office so most people wore jeans and sneakers. I had on my light light blue Grana jeans and a flannel shirt, tucked in. The CEO, who is a very old man, stopped me and my supervisor, admiring our shoes. I’d worn my red Lems Primal 2 shoes and she had on some black and white patterned Nikes. He said he liked the colors, which was funny to me. I was so tired by Friday I really didn’t care too much about what I wore and looked forward to dressing down a bit.

I’d been eying a pair of Issey Miyake pants on eBay and unfortunately someone else bought them the night before I’d decided I’d get them. Now all I can think about are those pants! There is another similar pair of pants by Yohji Yamamoto on Totokaelo, but I’m not willing to drop $900 for them.

I need to work on finding a better lighting area for outfit photos. Looking at the photos overall this week – the lighting is all over the place.

 

The time in between

Over the past month my birthday has come and gone, as has my second wedding anniversary to the husband. It’s been a mixed bag of fun, stressful, and strange lately.

The good: I have a new job. I start in a week, so I get another week of blissful nothingness on my calendar. No phone screenings, no interviews, no obsessively checking job listings anymore.

interview
Interview outfit: sweater and pants – Everlane. Shoes – Chinese Laundry. These are the only heeled shoes I have and I wore them at my wedding and any other formal event I need them for.

The bad (but not really bad): A month after I was laid off my husband’s company went *poof* and ended.  Basically, someone died or is near death and the family took control of the assets, said “hell no” to the company and now 40+ people lost their jobs, my husband included.

Married. Mortgage. Unemployed. That was our status for a solid 3 weeks together. Then I got a job offer and now the husband has two companies tripping over themselves to hire him, so we’re waiting to see what the offers are. Depending on what happens this week, we both might start our new jobs on the same day, which I find rather funny.

We’ve had great weather for being unemployed. It’s been like a little vacation, or what retirement would be like, but without the stress. The husband said he’d have to find more hobbies because he’s been going stir-crazy. We’ve gone hiking at parks, visited a zoo, had brunch in the middle of the week when it’s quiet and not too crowded and done things we’ve been wanting to do but never had the time for before.

I’ve also spent a ridiculous amount of time playing a new 3DS game the hubs gave me for my birthday. I get very OCD and this game sucked me in. I don’t even want to think about what the hour count would be (if there was one) for my sitting on the sofa playing this game, but I’m sure I’d be somewhat ashamed of it (or not because it’s just silly fun).

birthday
Lavender colored roses for my birthday. I’m not a fan of red roses. I prefer purple, orange or white. I’ve been lounging a lot on that sofa lately.

We’ve worked on indoor and outdoor projects – mostly spearheaded by me since I see this time as an opportunity to do work we normally would put off. We worked in the yard and I’ve devised a plan for dealing with the huge flower bed that serves as a weed pit right now in the backyard. I transplanted some ground cover ivy from a patch behind the garage. The idea is to let it spread throughout the flower bed area and crowd out the weeds. I also painted the powder room a medium grey and now I want to repaint the whole house in that color because it looks so cozy. We’ll be repainting the upstairs bathroom this week because it really needs it.

Some of our friends know we’re unemployed now and it’s been funny hearing their reactions. “Knew that racket couldn’t last forever… ” in reference to my ridiculous non-job where I was laid off. “What the hell, guys!” – regarding both of us being unemployed, “How did you manage that!” “You’re doing it all wrong. You need to spend more time doing nothing and then look for a job when you absolutely have to.” Most people found it incredible how I was paid so long for doing next to nothing. I know I had it easy too. It was literally a 3 year paid vacation. Now that I’ve got a real job lined up I’m hoping I’m up for the challenge and ready to get my brain functioning again. The hubs has been getting verbal jabs from all over. He’s never been unemployed since he was 14. This is a first for him and our friends keep telling him to take more time off.

The weather is supposed to get cold and rainy this week, so this mini vacation may come to a welcome ending point. Being cooped up in the house together without too much to do might drive us both insane. I’ll be fine, on the sofa playing my game. The problem is he’ll have cabin fever and then constantly come interrupt my game play because he needs attention – so both of us will end up annoyed.

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Checking out a new park on our anniversary. Shirt – Everlane. Pants – Brass Clothing. Shoes – Lems Nine2five.

Just today

outfit

Shirt: Everlane. Pants: Brass Clothing. Shoes: Allbirds.

“Your outfit looks really good today.” An intern said this to me while getting coffee in the kitchen. At first, my inner snark wanted to reply, just today? but I decided to shrug it off and said, “I just threw it on this morning.”  She said whenever she threw on clothes in the morning she never looks half as put together as I do. I just smiled at the compliment.

Later on I came across articles on different sites about how people can have multiple selves when it comes to fashion. Each day is different so we present a different side of ourselves and that’s reflected in how we dress. A person can be coherent with their wardrobe (uniforms or same structure styles in outfits) or near schizophrenic, exhibiting a variety of styles and silhouettes. I used to think I wanted to be a uniform type of person, but now I’m not so sure. But this got me thinking about the intern’s comment. She didn’t mean it negatively in any way I’m sure, but rather, something about my outfit today  resonated with her.

My outfits yesterday and today are generally the same. I’m wearing a striped shirt and black pants with slip-on shoes. However, the styles of the clothing differ. Today’s shirt is a button-down and the stripes are vertical instead of horizontal. Although not entirely fitted, the shirt is also more structured than yesterday’s. The pants today are form-fitting and closer to the norm for most black pants women wear. The pants yesterday were structural, but in a slightly more formal fashion and they were large in the legs, which is not normally seen. I almost wore my TOMS again, but changed to the Allbirds because I felt wearing the TOMS would be too boring. Honestly, I prefer yesterday’s look to today’s.

I talked to the husband about my tendonitis woes and how either I can wear the moon boot again, or see how well this brace works out. I also might get a different brace for wearing to bed. He suggested I just wear this one and so I thought about how I could do so comfortably. Yesterday I wore my soft brace without any socks and realized it was far too itchy. The company recommends wearing socks under the brace and I’m guessing comfort is a big reason for that. However, it would irritate me to sleep with just one foot covered in a sock and I generally don’t like wearing socks to bed.

What I needed was a sock-let type of thing. I don’t have many long socks, but my husband has half a drawer full and he’s still got some that have never been worn even though he got them 3 years ago. I asked to have a pair of his socks and I wouldn’t be able to return them because I needed to cut them. He gave me a pair and I cut off the very ends so the socks fit on the areas I need them to while wearing the brace. Also, since the socks were long, I could fold them over the brace, which would make it more comfortable to wear at night (I’m a side sleeper).

brace

This is the sock-let experiment result. The top part of the sock is completely folded over the velcro bits of the brace so I have sock covering the inside and outside scratchy parts.

I didn’t sleep as well last night as normal because I was aware of the brace most of the night, but I think I could get used to it. What surprised me was how comfortable I was today while wearing this. The ponte pants were stretchy enough to fit over the brace and even cover up the sock parts so it didn’t look weird. I highly doubt anyone even noticed I was wearing a brace.

I’d read that wearing a brace at night to keep the foot from flexing too much would help in addition to wearing a brace during the day, so I’m trying this out for a while. And by a while, I mean probably a few months. I did notice yesterday that my bump, which wasn’t huge to begin with, is already decreasing in size.

I. Will. Beat. This. Mother. Fucking. Tendonitis.

Typical

outfit

Shirt: Banana Republic. Pants: Brass Clothing. Shoes: TOMS.

Another blue and black outfit. To many in general, this is a perfectly good and put together outfit – however, maybe I should’ve tucked in the shirt. But this particular outfit is quite possibly the most mainstream one I’ve done. What I mean by mainstream is – it’s a very typical outfit for women to wear. In fact, on some days last winter there have been at least 3 women in the office wearing this exact outfit in some manner on the same day. It’s that common, or mainstream, of an outfit. The variations of this outfit range from the shirt being denim (like mine) or chambray (in slightly lighter hues) or the pants being pitch black skinny jeans (the most common) or jean-like pants that are also skinny. Shoes range from black ballet flats to brogues to boots – usually black, but sometimes the boots are brown. I was perfectly comfortable in this outfit but aware I was wearing a very typical outfit and that, by default, made it feel boring to me.

I know there’s comfort in familiarity, but when it comes to clothes I want to be in the unfamiliar territory. Perhaps that’s not the right word – I’m not sure what word I’m looking for, but I want to wear clothes that speak more to me as an individual. Being in the workforce where such outfits aren’t acceptable is tough, but I’m lucky that I can experiment due to how relaxed my office is about attire. The boss could care less if you showed up in PJs or not, and there have been a lot of house slippers seen around the office in winter time. I’m glad I can change my style in an atmosphere where most others just don’t care, or if they do they don’t say anything and leave me be. It’s only here where I can look at my outfits and realize what I’ve worn is either a bit, miss, or flat out blunder of the worst kind. It may take a while before I can figure out where I’m going with all of this.