This post is sponsored by the wine I just drank.

Full Disclosure: I have had a couple glasses of wine.  It’s been that kind of week. Navel gazing or weird tangents may show up in this post.

First of all, thank you Michelle, Lori and Kaya for your kind comments. It truly is amazing how the kindness of strangers can help lift my mood or remind me that yes, there are people out there aware and reading and thinking of me in some way and despite my troubles, lack of posting, or whining – still want to hear from me. That means everything to me right now.  It also motivates me to keep posting. When I got the comments in notices on my phone, usually before I’d leave the driveway for work each morning this week, they almost brought me to tears. So, Thank You.

Another thing bringing me to tears right now is the fact that our grocery delivery this week really fucked up our order and instead of getting us poblano peppers we got large green chili peppers that I cut up for dinner tonight – thinking they were poblanos – and then ended up touching my eyes with chili-oil-infused hands. I am all sorts of red-faced with swollen, burning eyes at this moment.

I’m sure there is a level of Dante’s Hell that I could equate to this week, but I’m not sure which one at the moment. Work has been a disaster because my main client’s products are all running late and none of them are being made properly. I feel like I’ve been talking to brick walls (aka management) about a lot of the problems and I’ve been constantly running around the shop floor demanding answers that everyone is too ambivalent to give me. Or they pass the buck and blame someone else because there’s no hard proof that it’s any one specific department to blame. Ugh.

Aside from that I’ve been dealing with severe back pain. It’s been on and off for a while and I alluded to health issues in my last post. They are still ongoing. I don’t know if it’s a pinched nerve or something more severe, but the back pain has been crippling me. I can only lay in one position at night to sleep, even after taking pain pills or muscle relaxers. I can hardly sit down for over 20 minutes at a time in my work chair, but when I’m lounged at home in a specific spot I refuse to move because then I know my back will hurt. I can stand, which does help, but then the pressure of standing for too long also gets to me. I just feel broken in general. I’m still also dealing with the lower hamstring tendonitis in my right leg.

Even though I’ve been exercising this week I don’t feel like I’ve gotten anywhere with helping or alleviating the pain, so I made a doctor’s appointment for this coming Tuesday.

This weekend Z and I will plan a vacation for this year. It’s been a few years now since we’ve taken a proper one. We held back because we both started new jobs at the same time and either didn’t have the time to take a proper vacation (me, building up time off) or because we were too busy (usually Z’s case). He recently found a site that has an easy guide to several southwest national parks and he’s been wanting to see those for a while. We normally lean towards cool, mountainous, waterfall-filled, green parks like Rainier, Yosemite, Grand Teton, etc… but we now we are ready to see other landscapes. For this upcoming trip, which may be October, we want to hit up several parks: Zion, Bryce, Grand Canyon, etc… We may not do the extensive hiking like we normally do, but prefer to see one main attraction in each. If anyone has any recs, we are all ears/eyes.

That will be the bulk of this weekend along with cleaning the house, my finishing some paperwork for dad’s estate, and generally hibernating indoors. We were supposed to get lots of snow, but now it seems more like a sleet/rain mix and deathly cold temperatures. There will be lots of hot chocolate and Zelda: BOTW playing once all chores are done.  Please tell me what you are all up to.

This week’s outfit photos (new rug in study where I take photos), minus today, which was jeans, plaid flannel shirt and Blundies.

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8 thoughts on “This post is sponsored by the wine I just drank.”

  1. A lot of my writing is helped along by a glass or two of wine. It helps disinhibit this mind of mine.

    And speaking of pain. When my husband was away for a long period of time and I had to manage the kids on my own, I started suffering for the most awful neck pain. I researched it thinking that it must be psychosomatic and sure enough, neck pain and stress are strongly connected. And it is the same for back pain:



    So try be kind to yourself and your body, as much as you can. A vacation would probably help. I am at a point right now where I think that I should allow all the self-indulgence. Life is crappy enough, I should do whatever I can to make it easier on myself, if at all within my power.


    1. Thanks for the links, Lori. Considering the pain is on my right side and I’ve been dealing with the hamstring tendonitis on that side as well I wouldn’t doubt that the two may end up related – on top of all the stress. I got an RX for physical therapy again so hopefully that will help.


  2. Chili peppers and eyes are a terrible combination!!!!!

    I’m sorry to hear life and all has been so tough. I hope your doctor appointment brings some resolution to the back pain. And trip planning helps too, something to look forward to in the future.

    So, I have to admit that I am very curious to know the name of your favorite hot chocolate. Please share!


  3. I’m so sorry to hear that 2019 so far has been so awful. (And ugh, I’ve had my own run-in with a chili pepper mix up, and it is just not fun at all.) Best wishes to you, and I deeply hope that things start looking up soon.

    (Breath of the Wild is a great way to relax! I loved exploring in it and getting to the ends of the map, but never really got anywhere with the main plot. I had my most hectic period ever at work recently and bought the Sims 4 so that might be my next game.)

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    1. Z teases me all the time for not even getting any of the divine beast quests done because they give you better abilities, particularly Rivali for jumping in the air so you can scale mountains in the rain. I just did the Zora one so maybe I’ll do Rito next.
      Last night I paid for the two e passion packs because I want ALL the outfits! 🤓
      I’ve never played Sims but I can see how it would be. Relaxing game to unwind with. I think Animal Crossing is like that for me. I’m really looking forward to that coming out on Switch this year!


  4. Listening, reading, and DEFINITELY care to hear how you are. Thanks for the update although I’m so freaking sorry to read about the stress and pain you’re experiencing.

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